Well its got to be strong to touch my heart through its shell

I love when I have something I really need to do, I always feel the need to update my blog. Yay procrastination.

This weekend was beyond amazing. Such a wonderful end to such a stressful week (:

I just put all the pictures up in non-chronilogical order so whatever. I'll start by saying that Brett and I went to the lindy on sproul thing he goes to yesterday, which is basically a bunch of people who gather to dance at the plaza in Berkeley. I was so tired because of the day before being so hectic, then getting little to no sleep because of stupid dumb blondes bitching about not really stolen iPods (abra kadabra!) but the dancing was worth it.

Please observe pictures Brett's friend Kristen took :)

Blues dancin'

Then we went to a random patch of grass after eating at Slurp's and sprawled out and sort of half-napped for a while... it was wonderful. Berkeley's campus is so nice :)

So Brett had been gone all week in Cabo, and this is one of the things he brought me back :) "te amo lora" with a little heart and rose thing ona grain of rice. He's super cute.

Friday after Mr. Cali and the competition (which went a lot better than I was anticipating), we finally made it over to Donnie's for Andrew's neon party... so fun. I was with all my favorite people. :D

I could write a lot more, but I'm going to try to work on my powerpoint thing so I can go sleepy.

Ps- Isn't it ironic that when people find out they can't have something, they want it that much more? It's really irritating me right now. Sorry, you lost your chance.

The sun is up, the sky is blue, its beautiful and so are you

I have had an extremely stressful week. But its coming together nicely now, I have my Ohlone competition that I'm not looking forward to in the least bit tomorrow... and Brett finally comes home :) Then lots of fun tomorrow night with parties, sleepovers (: and Mr. Cali.

My ball dress arrived!

I have lots to work on, but I'll update tomorrow perhaps.

Trapped on the terraces, I looked at you and knew

There's a good possibility that Leeanna might move in with us, at least for a little while. I just want her to be happy, even if it might make things in my life a little awkward. She's the ying to my yang.

I think I found where I want to live in Fullerton. It's a dorm-like community, like an apartment complex that only students live in. It seems awesome, I'm really excited to go visit. I'm actually starting my life!! I get so excited thinking about it. But this place, university village, is seriously perfect for me. Leeanna could live there too.

I have hellaa work to do before thursday! No bueno. I'm sad. Homework isn't a word I commonly use anymore, I hate that I have to actually work haha. Oh well, best gear up for next year! I have a lot more I want to write about, but I'm going to go be productive.

"Thank you for walking into my life"

Life is a funny little thing. I haven't been able to bring myself to finishing a blog in a while, but I think I might give it a shot tonight.



As I mentioned before, DC was amazing. I love traveling and experiencing new places and re-experiencing places... creating mental pictures for the memory album within my mind. I just found out that I'm going down to Fullerton the weekend of April 14 for the open house and to register and all that... I'm really excited. I'm going to hopefully get to see my brother and some Y&G loves as well.



Its really odd to me that I'm leaving in less than 5 months. March is nearly over, April is almost completely booked already, and I'm looking forward to May and all its (hopeful) relaxation.



I feel like I've been saying the same thing every month... that I can't wait for things to end so I'll have TIME. But in reality, I have been saying that all year, and I still don't really feel any less busy haha. This hasn't even felt like spring break, just a really long weekend. And honestly? It has been so low-key compared to my crazy winter break. I haven't been to a party since... well, I really don't know when. Tyler Smith's helllaaa days ago? That's unusual for me. But I've either been out of town, working, or otherwise occupied when other parties come up. I haven't drank since Derek showed up with that bottle of red wine when my parents were gone, but I didn't even drink a significant amount then. It feels kind of nice. Especially because I know next year I'm just going to be trashed all the time, hahah or so I believe.



Back to what I was beginning to say - leaving seems so foreign to me. Like, I'm really moving away to college? My life is really beginning? It's such an odd thing.




Things with Brett have been going really well. I feel like we've known each other a lot longer than we really have. It's nice. I don't expect a lot, and I'm not taking it ultra seriously. But it is getting "serious", at least to the point where I know he's not just going to flake out on me like some random asshole. And that's a nice thing to know. Plus, he's rediculously sweet and makes me very happy. He does a lot of little things that really make me get intense butterflies. Holding my face, cute little surprise kisses, so many things. Singing together, harmonizing. So cheesy, but so wonderful hahah.



I asked him to ball in an ultra sweet way (that I'm pretty proud of!) and I'm stoked for it. He really is the perfect date - everyone I've introduced him to already has gotten along with him and I know I'm not going to have to like, cater to his needs. I know that I am going to be able to romp around and be social with him and have him interact with people even if he doesn't really know them, dance the night away, and I know he'll be nothing but a perfect gentleman to me as a date. :) Its going to be great.




I keep letting the fact that its senior ball overshadow the fact that it's going to be my 18th birthday!! So strangeeee. I'm going to be a big girl. I'm going dress shopping tomorrow, I'm excited :D




Life is passing me by far too quickly.

Its been a while

DC was amazing. I had a ton of fun, bonded, and made a lot of good memories.

To be continued, I need sleep.

breathe easy for a while

Ashland was wonderful. Super relaxing and all the shows we saw were phenomonal.

It was nice to get away, I'm so sick of home yet so homesick? Irony.

I have to memorize all my lines for my scene by tomorrow AND memorize a brand new monologue. Eeek. Although I have been told good things about my standings in the casting process, I am still slightly nervous. Auditioning in front of you peers is slightly scary...

Today was really good :)

Date number two. More swing dancing, a picnic in the park, chimichangas, watching the sun set on Fish Ranch Road, and push pops. Six hours of wonderfulness.

I'm still very guarded... but its good. I'm scared to death of being hurt again haha. Super paranoid. Buuuuuuut he makes me smile a lot and is absolutely adorable. :)

Butterfliessss

Peach milk green tea with boba, crepes, good conversation, chemistry, doors being held open and checks being paid for, and the best of all - an hour of swing dancing to the beatles.... and a goodbye kiss :)

Trying not to psych myself out, but I'm damnnnn happy. He's a big sweetheart, and his name is Brett. (not to be confused with prom brett... this is the brett of the future hahaha )

AND I LOVE MEEGS.

Off to Ashland until Sundayyy, I'm seeing him again Monday :)