Do you know where your heart is?

Airplane snapshots and bears hanging out of windows..

the view from my brother's patio

Manhattan beach/ pier





Funny story behind these... we took a cab back after dinner since it was a pretty far walk back to my brother's house, and we got picked up in the "party van" driven by johnny kash ahahah he pulled down a screen and a live beyonce concert dvd was playing. kim and i were dying. then he turned on all these lights?! ahahhaha it was amazing.

Fullerton was amazing. I cannot wait to move. The school is seriously perfect for me, the theatre program is so spectacular. I toured the theatres and fell in love. I want this so bad, its so competitive, but I am going to work as hard as I can to be part of the 20% who make it into the BFA program.

Life is funny right now. I'm in a complete transition phase of my life, but I'm trying to enjoy it. Brett tried out for the UC Men's Octet today and made it to the last round! I'm anxious waiting to hear if he made it.

I keep having these dreams where Eric pops up, its really odd. Its kind of unsettling, to be honest. I wake up really disoriented, because it takes me back to a mentality I don't think my conscious self ever lets me return to as of late. I'm so detatched from everything. Its kind of nice, actually. I don't want to fall in love or make any best best friends right now so its cool to just hang with the people that are in my life with no real expectations. I feel free, its wonderful. (:

I'm going to Aptos' prom with my middle school crush, its going to be really fun. He's this really funny surfer guy that I went to Monte Vista with, and he just sort of randomly asked me because he didn't have a date, which is fine for me. I know we'll just be chillin and there will be no romantic pressure or anything. And there's a big bbq before and I'm sure we'll be partying after.. I am so excited! He'll be a fun date and it will just be an overall fun night :)

Two proms two weekends in a row! Sweeeeeet ! These last few months of living at home and school are going to be so fun and great. I am so stoked off life right now, its a great feeling. And you know what? I've been pretty happy with life before, but it always seemed to revolve around my feelings for a boy. And honestly, having Brett in my life is awesome, but that definitely isn't why my life rules so much right now.. it just adds to it :)

Brett just sent me this amazing acapella song... he's at some acapella practice. I want to be in an acapella group so badlyyyy.

On the softness of her laugh, I could almost make my bed

I got the pictures from the shoot! They are amazing. I love Andria, she is so talented.

I'm trying very hard to not let little insignificant things bother me... but I think everyone I talk to about it understands. I have a right!!! :P

It's weird to be "dating" someone who isn't an hour away. I like it though. I like that its not so serious, I just like it in general. I went to Brett's volleyball game yesterday, that was fun. Sports are so fun to watch simply for the faces people make while playing them. Love it. Then we had Greek food at Daphne's - it was phenomenal. I'm in love with Brett's cat !!! Monty, she's the best. Softest most cuddly wonderful thing in the world. And I met his parents... super jewish, I love it.

To say I'm really excited for this weekend is an understatement. I am SO pumped. I cannot wait. Lots of applications lately to fill out.. housing, scholarships, camp counselor applications. I'm auditioning for a $10,000 scholarship... nerve wracking, but if I get it - that would be freaking awesome. I want to be a camp counselor at this drama camp this summer really badly. It would be such an amazing experience...but who knows if I will even be able to. I have so much on my plate.

I am sitting here staring at my room, just wishing it would make itself better.. haha I need to set a time aside to clean it. But I have literally, no time. Except for downtime like this after work which I like to spend enjoying myself and relaxing.. not cleaning. Perhaps tomorrow.

My bed is beckoning me for a swim in my dreams, so I guess I'll dive in. :)

Well its got to be strong to touch my heart through its shell

I love when I have something I really need to do, I always feel the need to update my blog. Yay procrastination.

This weekend was beyond amazing. Such a wonderful end to such a stressful week (:

I just put all the pictures up in non-chronilogical order so whatever. I'll start by saying that Brett and I went to the lindy on sproul thing he goes to yesterday, which is basically a bunch of people who gather to dance at the plaza in Berkeley. I was so tired because of the day before being so hectic, then getting little to no sleep because of stupid dumb blondes bitching about not really stolen iPods (abra kadabra!) but the dancing was worth it.

Please observe pictures Brett's friend Kristen took :)

Blues dancin'

Then we went to a random patch of grass after eating at Slurp's and sprawled out and sort of half-napped for a while... it was wonderful. Berkeley's campus is so nice :)

So Brett had been gone all week in Cabo, and this is one of the things he brought me back :) "te amo lora" with a little heart and rose thing ona grain of rice. He's super cute.

Friday after Mr. Cali and the competition (which went a lot better than I was anticipating), we finally made it over to Donnie's for Andrew's neon party... so fun. I was with all my favorite people. :D

I could write a lot more, but I'm going to try to work on my powerpoint thing so I can go sleepy.

Ps- Isn't it ironic that when people find out they can't have something, they want it that much more? It's really irritating me right now. Sorry, you lost your chance.

The sun is up, the sky is blue, its beautiful and so are you

I have had an extremely stressful week. But its coming together nicely now, I have my Ohlone competition that I'm not looking forward to in the least bit tomorrow... and Brett finally comes home :) Then lots of fun tomorrow night with parties, sleepovers (: and Mr. Cali.

My ball dress arrived!

I have lots to work on, but I'll update tomorrow perhaps.

Trapped on the terraces, I looked at you and knew

There's a good possibility that Leeanna might move in with us, at least for a little while. I just want her to be happy, even if it might make things in my life a little awkward. She's the ying to my yang.

I think I found where I want to live in Fullerton. It's a dorm-like community, like an apartment complex that only students live in. It seems awesome, I'm really excited to go visit. I'm actually starting my life!! I get so excited thinking about it. But this place, university village, is seriously perfect for me. Leeanna could live there too.

I have hellaa work to do before thursday! No bueno. I'm sad. Homework isn't a word I commonly use anymore, I hate that I have to actually work haha. Oh well, best gear up for next year! I have a lot more I want to write about, but I'm going to go be productive.