Instigator

I wish so very much that I wasn't always the one to instigate. And I think it is just me overanalyzing things, I'm just impatient.

I hate insecure days, I am not an insecure person. It honestly just pisses me off when I let little things like this get to me and then I'm just in a worse mood.

I'm going to blame it on the moon and the weather. Tonight WILL be better, we have our improv show and I am going to try not to let the little things get me down.

I just wish, for once, I wouldn't have to chase. I guess thats dumb of me to say, because there are people who persue me .. just never the people I want to. Makes me seem pretty selfish, but what am I supposed to feel?

I'm not sure how I'm supposed to react to some things. It seems like even when I feel I'm doing the right thing, I get shit for it. Oh wellll. Life goes on. I'm alive, I'm healthy, my family is wonderful. The few friends I do have shine through. I think I have to stop wanting everything to happen so fast and just relax. Find my own strength.