Saturday, April 18, 2009

Tonight I am sitting here and I don't need anyone. I am completely content where I am.

I do get emotions attached too easily to people so far away, I need to stop doing that. And as content as I am being where I am, I can't say I don't still think about you almost every day and miss you.

I still wonder if I should give it a chance. But I'm not going to vocalize how I'm doing thinking that one over until I'm sure of it. God knows you'd hate me for it.

Who knows if you'd even care to hear it anymore.

Monday, April 13, 2009

I feel insane.

I just looked up apartments in Vancouver.

This is redefining every idea of a relationship and how it's supposed to go. I never really believed in love at first sight or whatever, and I certainly don't think this is the case but I feel so incredibly drawn to you. And you make me so happy, happier than I've been in a long, long time.

It scares the shit out of me.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Some times I feel like we went through a breakup.

But we were never together.

It hurts.

Monday, April 6, 2009

My Lack of Skill

All my life, I waited for something great,
Here I am with nothing showing.
And all I want, yes it is all I wanted- it's us
I lost my chance maybe a month ago.
I waited long but I got to thinking
I waste my time because I'm always thinking I'm wrong.

And it's tough being alone when you're naive
And you just want to believe everything everyone says.
Oh, it would be great if I could just deal with it.

I'm packing up almost everything,
I'm moving out and starting over.
And all I want, maybe it's all I want, is love.
If that was it, then it would all be great,
But I can't walk without feeling lost.
And I don't know, I'm thinking it's all I know is us.

And it's tough being alone when you're naive.
And you just want to believe everything everyone says.
oh, it would be great if I could just deal...

Ahhh

And it's tough being alone when you're naive.
And you just want to believe everything and everyone.