Is it weird how good this is? It is. Is it weird how okay I am with it all? It is.

We'll see.

I feel safe just sitting across the table.

But, right now, I just had to call the cops on the couple downstairs because I could hear them threatening each other and I know they have a kid. I'm so shaken up because the cops came to my door by accident and I don't know. I just don't know. It reminds me of something that could have been escalated into that. It scares me.

Even though I know you're probably bipolar now, it still doesn't mean things will work out. I wish it could though.

I don't know what to do.

So my whole family calling me every day asking if I'm bringing a date to the wedding doesn't make things easier.

I feel like I'm losing myself.

I have found in exploring my chakras

in my voice and movement class,

I bury a lot more than I realize.

Working through things I've buried deep isn't easy. I have so many doubts, I really wish it didn't effect me so much.