Strawberry swing

They were sitting

They were sitting in the strawberry swing

Every moment was so precious

They were sitting

They were talking in the strawberry swing

Everybody was for fighting

Wouldn't wanna waste a thing

Cold, cold water

Bring me round

Now my feet won't touch the ground

Cold, cold water

What ya say?

It's such It's such a perfect day

It's such a perfect day

I remember

We were walking up to strawberry swing

I can't wait 'til the morning

Wouldn't wanna change a thing

People leaving all the time

Inside a perfectly straight line

Don't you wanna curve away

It's such

It's such a perfect day

It's such a perfect day

Now the sky could be blue

I don't mind

Without you it's a waste of time

I adore this song.

I feel so weird, this week is weird. Signing yearbooks is weird. Especially when I'm signing someone's that I know I'll most likely never see again. Idk, today was good but I had a lot of alone time to get paranoid and freak out. I'm just realizing that all the people I'm surrounding myself with I'm going to have to leave in under 3 months, minus a few. It's thoroughly depressing.

I really like Donnie. And I'm such a stupid girl about stupid things. I feel like I'm getting to that point where I'm really putting myself out there... he knows I like him and he's secured a place in my life for the time being, but I feel like whenever I get to this point where I'm comfortable with a guy, I get nervous sometimes. Because more things are assumed and things become less formal and intense and I just feel vulnerable. It's really a stupid thing but idk. I just feel like a lot of guys have taken advantage of how laid-back I am and end up disappointing me. I was thinking about it on the way home from Andrew's - my soulmate, the man I will marry, won't ever disappoint me. I mean, I'm sure he will..but he'll make up for it. It just makes me nervous because so many guys have done it before, you know? I wish I could just let all that shit go.

You know what? I will. I will make an effort to just let it go. It's not worth wasting my time. I don't want to be that stupid girl with issues because of the way a guy treated me in the past. But then again, its good to be protective of your heart.

I guess its stupid on another level because although I really like Donnie, I'm not sure I'm anywhere near loving him. Not that I was expecting to, I'm just pointing that out. So what am I worrying about? I'm just having fun. I need to let go.

Edit :

Rachel Whiteside just called me for boy advice. She knew I would be one person who understood her and listen and give honest advice without really pushing for details with what was going on. It was really refreshing. She basically told me how she wonders if she just chooses the same types of guys or if it's just her being silly? Idk, we basically talked about everything I wrote and I gave her advice that I need to listen to. Say what you need to say, relax otherwise. I feel so good right nowww. Bed is calling <3