Wednesday, December 31, 2008


This has been a long and eventful year - I graduated, my sister got married, I started college. I lost a lot of friends but gained more. I'm going to write and reflect - forgive the length, I'm doing this for my own good more than anyone elses.

January, started the year out single and drunk. Didn't have a new years kiss from a boy, instead a threesome kiss with some girls from Y&G. That's the way it should have been. Fell asleep under the Ryerson's Christmas tree and woke up thoroughly confused as to how I got there. Besides new years, I was still battling a broken heart this month and my Pop-Pop's health continued to downhill. He died early January, and his funeral ironically fell on my would-be 3 year anniversary with Eric. I thought it would be the worst day of my life, but it was actually a good one. Lots of family time, and much better than if I had been left with my thoughts alone on that day. I went to BOB 2 with Y&G and had an awesome time being introduced to the media program. I broke code kissing Austin behind a barrack, how eventful haha

February, I went to the Lenea One Act Play Festival at Sacramento State and our play won bronze. I got Best Actress in our category. It was a huge surprise and was a big deciding factor in my major. The play opened at Cal High and went well. I went to Sacramento for Y&G and had the time of my life. Media was amazing, I spent so much time with Tess laying around in hotel rooms and just loving the program so much. I spent Valentine's Day with her on a sushi date in downtown Sac, and couldn't have asked for a better day. Austin ignored me and I told him off :) I had so much fun with my delegation (handicap doorbell especially) and wouldn't trade those 5 days for anything.

March, I started to heal but was hurt again by a close friend with a crazy almost-girlfriend. I visited Tess in the city and that remedied it all. I changed my passwords on all my accounts, closing the door. I went to Ashland with Drama Club and saw three amazing productions - Fences, Clay Cart, and Midsummer Night's Dream. I had an amazing time bonding with Candace and Viv, not to mention Neema and Andres. And Woodsie! It snowed for a brief amount of time and I fell more in love with theatre. I had met Brett at this point, and was convinced he was going to be my next boyfriend. We went on a few dates, then I left for Washington DC with Chamber. I had an amaaaazing time with Tara and Simone, roaming around the Smithsonians and seeing all the sights. Singing every place we went and bonding. We saw the beginnings of cherry blossoms and continually appreciated each other's company. Tara and I bonded with two girls we never expected to. I asked Brett to ball when I got back (in a completely adorable way I might add). I became closer with Cameron and Megan, and did a photoshoot in the city.

April, I spent a lot of time with Brett and slowly began to realize he was just a rebound. I had some good times with him, though - Lindy at Sproul and Donnie's party (ironic?). I went and visited Fullerton with my parents, it was really nice to see where I would be living and going to school. Spending time with Keith and Kim was really good, too. My birthday was fun, I got pampered for senior ball and had a great time dancing with all of my friends. Cameron got drunk with us for the first time that night, and I had a great time just hanging out with close friends. Senior ditch day was awesome, we all went to Berkeley and shopped. San Ramon Wars began and I got Nate! My one and only victim. I felt like a champ. I ended the month finding out about Eric's new girlfriend, and I was actually somewhat okay with it.

May, I started my crush on Donnie. We went to Minus the Bear together and talked the whole way there and back. We all went to Coit Tower after and it was a really really good night. I spent the majority of my nights with Donnie, Andrew, Kate, and Phil. Donnie and I kissed for the first time, and thus began the weird relationship we would develop. I genuinely liked him, and it was a refreshing change. Leeanna came to visit and we got drunk at Andrew's, polaroids galore. I ended the night sleeping in Bailey's bed with Donnie, completely content. I spent the majority of May up late hanging out with Donnie in one way or another. We adventured to Pop Scene one Thursday and I just remember feeling so elated, wearing his shirt and leaning against his shoulder while we sat on a wall looking over the ocean. I went to my first party at the boy's in Dublin and met Jelena, not knowing the profound effect these people would have on me for the next year of my life. I performed in my last play at Cal High and our play won the festival, (even though we probably did the least amount of work). I won an award of some kind. I just had a blast being a badass hunter woman haha. I ended my month going to Gilroy and running into Eric for the first time. That was the only time I've seen him since we've been officially over.

June, I graduated. Graduation was a very bittersweet day - I got into a HUGE argument with Eric and finding out about Matt's accident, but couldn't have been happier to walk across that stage and leave him far behind. I sang one last time with Chamber at the beginning of the ceremony, and managed to not trip walking across the turf. It was a very surreal feeling, but also a really amazing one. I had a great Grad party and got thrown into the pool by my siblings. I ended the night drinking champagne with my family. Things started to get a little weird with Donnie, and I started spending some time with Joe Pearce. I partied a ton and spent a lot of time with Leeanna in Gilroy at her janky little apartment and going to Giant's games.

July, was started out on the 4th being the drunkest I think I've ever been (12 shots, 2 or so beers). I had a really good time, despite my 2 hour meltdown and first real argument with Donnie. I met Urosh, who truly put a lot in perspective for me. Alex took care of me and our close friendship really blossomed. But dancing and galavanting around Lauren's freaking mansion was like a dream. I went on a date with Urosh to see Wall-E and it was probably the best one I've ever been on. I finally got my housing packet for University Village and therefore had an official move-out date. I saw Coldplay with Jelena and Justin and practically died with ecstasy. I ended the month with Taryn's golden birthday party, and drank a ton of champagne, then headed down to San Diego for my sister's wedding!

August, was a month of big change. My sister got married August 1, and in the week I was in San Diego I went jet skiing and was drunk almost every night. Every single day there was one to remember - staying with Danny was so fun. My sister's wedding was beautiful and I wept like a little girl. I circled danced to "We Are Family" with a bunch of my extended family and my brother-in-law's family, it was a lot of fun. Had a game night with the girls, stayed up til 5 drinking with Donnie and his friends/watching the olympics and then woke up at 8 to go to my dad's company picnic the next day. Fought with Eric about goodbyes, got a half-assed phone call and then spent my last few days with Donnie. He took me to the park and finally introduced me to all his really close friends, and took me out to 3 Bros. Treated me like I was his girlfriend. The night before I moved, he gave me a book and a Fleet Foxes CD, and we sat in my car in my driveway for 3 hours trying to get up the courage to leave. I cried, and then he cried. I will treasure those moments forever. Saying goodbye to other people, packing up my whole room miraculously, and getting into my car to go off to college were moments in my life that still feel surreal. I arrived in So Cal with no problems, and had a good time driving with my mom. I moved in to University Village and had my first crazy night at college, got ridiculously trashed with my favorite people. School started and I was thrown right into performances, and I began falling in love with my program.

September, I bought a mint green beach cruiser, auditioned for my first college production and got two call backs, and drunkenly fell into Mike. He came over and made me a bomb ass dinner, and then drifted in and out of my life from then on. I went and saw Nathan for the first time and it was just what I needed. He made me an amazing pasta dinner and then homemade chai after, then fixed my flat tire. I went to Santa Barbara with Katharine and saw Jason Mraz, got drunk and laughed my ass off at Caitlins, ending my night asleep on a dog bed. I did a photo shoot then got sushi with Mj. I went on a real date with Mike, and almost witnessed a fight at Disneyland. Met Robbie, started that saga. Learned to love his sweaty hands and drunken nights with Stacey. Threw up my entire life, but Robbie took care of me (sobbed for Katharine on the toilet and was convinced I was dying.) Recovered the whole next day in the infirmary which our room became. Megan and I threw an epic cocktail party, and I made rice croquettes for everyone! September went out with our first rain at Fullerton, though it didn't last long - it thundered.

October,I came home for the first time for Lovefest! I met Lora for the first time and bonded on the way up with her and Nathan. Came home to rice croquettes and hugs from momma. Spent the night with Ali V and Donnie. The next day I made it to SF finally after nearly being assaulted on bart and taking the wrong bus, and spent 3 hours at Kenny's alone. We made our way over to lovefest and I had a great time hanging out with my old Y&G buddies. I did a whip-it for the first time and tripped balls. Back to Fullerton, I spent lots of time with Katharine Robby and Scott, went to a highlighter party and got acid in my eye, and started going to the gym regularly. Went to the Smell and wandered around downtown LA with Robbie at night, met Ricky the Pirate and realized my love for sky vodka. Gave my number to a complete gorgeous stranger on campus. Went to the intern retreat, bonded with my new family and got psyched up for Y&G! Girls night in began, went to Chapman for the first time after doing a photoshoot for Reuben. Ended October in Santa Barbara for Halloween with Jelena and Danny and Donnie. Dramatic but a ton of fun, I was Wendy from Peter Pan !

November, I came home from SB and had a family sleepover with Robby Scott and Katharine. We fell asleep watching Singing in the Rain. We went to Jack in the Box at 2am and just had fun laughing. Scott introduced me to Winco, I saw Pilots Wife in Long Beach with Dylan and Katharine, learned how to tie a bow tie. I VOTED for Obama and No on Prop 8. At least one of those came out on top. Nursed Katharine back to life from Strep, gave my campus testimony for cal high chamber, and went off to Bob 1! Had an amazing time interning and encouraging freshman/sophomores to Go Green! and bonding with my friends. Partied in SLO the night before. Spent the night at Nathan's new place, had an amazing day being lazy. This month is when the crazy fires happened, and I split to my brother's for a good nights rest and some pomegranate smirnoff ice. Finally came back to breathe a little cleaner air. Went to a taping of the soup, saw spring awakening and another professional production all in one week! Had a great time on the way back home for Thanksgiving, and spent the week with friends and family. Had a champagne night with the girls, and went to chippy friday and dollar scoop like back in high school. Finally accomplished my goal with Austin, only to have karma kick him in the ass. Made a black friday best buy run, and a decision to be celibate. Took me 9 and 1/2 hours to get back to Fullerton, but I bonded with Viv and Megan in the car.

December, the fog took over Fullerton. Katharine and I died watching American Ideal, and the text-to-speech saga began. I struggled with acting and focusing on school in general, but got it together and my acting professor told me that "I'd get it". Drunken charades, Jen chugging my vodka thinking it was water, puppy stores, and Red Robin with my girlies. Went to Disney with every single person I value from Fullerton and had the time of my life. Stayed up all night doing a costumes project, auditioned and went to see Bloc Party with Will in LA! Lora came and I showed her a good time with my frat boys, complete with beer pong and a ghetto party where we had to pretend to be lesbian to protect ourselves. I threw up my life once more but Lora was quick to pull my hair back. Went to Carlsbad with Tyler and Robby and met up with Rachel and Katharine. Had a lot of fun with my favorites, and raided Tyler's mom's thrift store. Bonding all kinds. Went to Cinespace to watch RB be famous, got drunk, met people from Say Anything and confessed feelings in the rain. Disneyland again, cookie air freshener, snow on main street. Nathan came to visit and took me out for sushi, we went back to Kayln's for cake and apples to apples. Came home for Christmas! Drove the whole way by myself but made it. Saw Kenny. Got sick, worked a tonnnn, went bowling. Made Christmas cookies with my momma and went to the candle lit christmas eve service with her. Had my first Christmas without my siblings around. Joined the Twilight saga and took a bath reading it for 4 days straight. Went to Gilroy to see Danny and Leeanna - went to the comedy club in SJ and saw Michael McDonald. Good best friend bonding.

I ended 2008 sleeping in til 2, going out to eat with my girlfriends for Sarah's birthday, and getting a ride up to Brad's new house. I met my goal of finishing an entire bottle of champagne by myself. Almost made it to downtown for the fireworks, but caught a cab back to the house for noisemakers and midnight kisses instead. Brad kissed me, but I ended my night with Andy... the way I wanted it to be. I had a really good time laughing and rolling around, blasting music and playing with Aaron's camera. Woke up to the new year, walked to the beach, hung out, came home and saw Marley and Me with my parents.

This has been an insaaaane year. But I've loved every single moment of it. I know that I've completely changed throughout this year through all the things I've gone through, and I am still changing, but I love where I'm at right now in life. 2008 was a great year, and I have confidence that 2009 will be even better.

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